A D A Y I N M Y L I F E

Puerto Rican FlagI was talking to this Puerto Rican older man about the status of Boricuas in the states. What came out of the conversation is basically what I know has been happening for many years now. We as Hispanics and Puerto Rican have lost our soul.

We have lost our culture. We have lost what makes us Boricuas. We have been cleansed by the American culture.

Yes they walk around with flags. I say they because I am not one of them as I was born and raised in PR. These people wear flag hats, shirts, socks, and anything you can imagine on their body to represent or rather to show everyone that they in fact are Puerto Ricans and not Newyoricans.

Ironic that the island folk don’t share the desire to wear flags to let people know who or where we come from. I guess maybe because we speak spanish with our lovely accent?

So I thought that this messed up flag is a metaphor for what we’ve become.

Puerto Rico |

Monday

08Mar2010

Monday, March 8, 2010 at 8:04PM

Party photos

Here are some of the photographs from the party. They are not that great but its all I have. This party was more fun then Shazam and Mighty Isis on a Saturday morning.

Dinner Party |

Monday

08Mar2010

Monday, March 8, 2010 at 7:56PM

My old boy toy wants to hang

Gil Bar SelaSo Gil wants to go to dinner or lunch. I am a little conflicted about this because of Josh. It would not be a date we go out all the time but he is an x. I should tell Josh or even bring him with me. Is that crazy? Maybe I just want honesty in my new friendship with Josh.

I have no feelings for gorgeous Gil. AT ALL.

Yes we are not boyfriends “officially” or maybe never be but I’d rather keep it real with my boy.

Friends | tagged

Dinner with Friends |

Sunday

07Mar2010

Sunday, March 7, 2010 at 7:29AM

More on the dating Josh

Follow this link to view the photos from the party. Not sure these are great but I am waiting for Caroline and Madeline for their contribution.

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I came to realize this day that maybe dating such a young guy is not a good idea. Today might be the day I decide to just be friends with my beautiful boy. It will not bring any joy but I think it might be the best. I don’t know if I should get into details about why I feel this way but let me just say he is a wonderful man and that all this is my own insecurity which has nothing to do with him.

I don’t know. We will see. I am sure when I see him I will change my mind.

We have shared many wonderful times together in the past couple of weeks. Time flies when we are together. It feels really good. So why do I want to end it right? I don’t know. Well I know but I am not sure if its cause for ending it.

I don’t know.

Update on Monday, March 8, 2010 at 11:21AM by

COMMODUSSF

Ok so I am confused about this boy. I’ve been trying for him to stay over my apartment. He keeps telling me that he cannot because his family will not allow this. This weekend he told me he was going to stay over a friends house. What?

And he is on this MX chat line all the time. What is he looking for there? We met there so that makes me feel weird. I cannot demand that stay off because we are just dating. So thats that.

So he can stay with a friend and suffer the outcome but not with me. I am a bit hurt by this or maybe not hurt but angry. I treat Josh like a King and he can’t get in trouble for me? I guess he does not like me as much as I want him to like me.

I know he wants to be me. God knows he makes plenty of time for me. So what do I want? I don’t want a boyfriend but I want someone to at least wake up with. Maybe it will never happen with him. So either I deal with his inability to completely please me or move on. I’d rather not move on for now.

Dating,

Dating Scene | tagged

Family,

Friends who share,

Long lost friends |

Sunday

07Mar2010

Sunday, March 7, 2010 at 7:15AM

Today is my Ribs Party